Message from Loser Lodge

Brenda, can you pass a g'day message to Ponderosa?
Let them know I am enjoying reading their shit and to keep it up and it's just as good as Brook and my quarrel.
I am bored shitless and would like to have some fun. (I probably sound like I have no life but I am in a hotel away from home for work so this is killing some time I must say).
I know you can't really say anything but if possible say A big hello to Mia and Chad and let them know I am big fans of both of them! Would be funny to see how the 3 that voted me out react to that. Haha. If only you could!

DO IT! DO IT!

No I won't be passing on any more messages, in either direction.

Hi John! Glad to see you doing well over there! Have fun!

Haha this is funny.

Back on NuChorotega, Tom and I went on a big campaign against John. John played me really hard in the first 2 vote offs, and luckily I got switched before he could do anything about it. I had a feeling something was up at out Julie TC, and then miraculously Tom picked me and we hit things off by comparing notes.

I was ready to throw Ami under the bus on NuChorotega, but as soon as we went on that winning streak and as soon as it became clear that NuGuatuso was probably one of the biggest clusterfuck tribes ever, Ami suddenly became an important ally again because I knew Jo/Ibe would make an honest attempt at pulling Tom back in.

Originally, Tom and I aligned, and Tom pulled BJ in, but BJ never did anything because he was gone for a few days, so I never really trusted him. I pulled Chris in, and Chris spilled all the beans and confirmed my suspicions about John, Brook, and Chad, and let me know that Ami was at least semi-guilty. So we had a four-man alliance with Ami and Lisa thinking they were in on one side and Kim and Caryn thinking they were in on the other side.

Caryn or Ami would have gone first. It would have depended.

My strategy at the merge was to keep original Guatuso together and get the numbers on Chorotega. YOu guys have basically confirmed my suspicions that most Chorotegan jury members are only looking to vote for other Chorotegans to win, so I wanted to force a Chorotega jury block that would be foreced to vote for Guatuso. I knew that my chances might be slim, but I didn't want to lose to a Chorotegan just because there were a bunch of them on the jury.

Anyways, once Caryn was gone, it was 5/6, and the plan was to get Tom to agree to voting out Jolanda. Then for some reason Chris fucked things up and went crazy. And Chad kind of did too. If Chad didn't play the idol and Chris never messed up so much, I'm sure Jolanda would have gone then.

After that, being 4/6, I still wanted to take out Chorotega members, so luckily Jo and Gregg went. Chad brought up Ami and my plan to vote out Tom at some point. The reason we didn't do it was because BJ had turned on our four-man alliance (The Fourskins) at that point, and Tom was still appearing to be semi-reliable, so BJ was the target.

That's when Chad fucked things up and kind of made it apparent to me that he wasn't on my side, and I sort of expected that Ami might flip over with Chad too, so I did the idol bluff. Tom knew I had the idol as soon as I found it, and I told him I woud be saving the idol for the next night. If anything, that was my worst move in this game. So Tom was able to screw me over.

But if BJ had gone, Tom probably WOULD have been next, but now that Chad has shown us all how much his gameplay literally was all over the place and that he had an alliance with Tom/Kim, I guess it wouldn't have happened. I guess I was just dumb enough to assume that Chad actually realized that his best shot was with Guatuso members.

For the record, if the Final 3 is Tom/Ami/Lisa, unless Lisa or Tom can make a really good case, Ami will have my vote. Regardless of original tribes, whatever. Ami would deserve it in that situation.
However if Bobby Jon or Kim make it, yeah they would have my vote. Because in the end they were on my side and stuck with me, and I was almost always in the minority. It meant a lot.

Point is, why would Ami/Tom/Lisa get my votes if they were against me like the whole game? I'm not that quick to award them my vote just because of the fact they outlasted me. I'm a little annoyed you think I'd give BJ and Kim my votes ONLY because they're original Chorotega. I don't care about that. It's about the game they played as a whole AND how they played with me. And they stuck with me until I was eliminated, and that meant a lot. Ami would be getting my vote because she did play a good game and was respectful to me. Tom was neither of those things.

For the record, if the Final 3 is Tom/Ami/Lisa, unless Lisa or Tom can make a really good case, Ami will have my vote. Regardless of original tribes, whatever. Ami would deserve it in that situation.
However if Bobby Jon or Kim make it, yeah they would have my vote. Because in the end they were on my side and stuck with me, and I was almost always in the minority. It meant a lot.

Point is, why would Ami/Tom/Lisa get my votes if they were against me like the whole game? I'm not that quick to award them my vote just because of the fact they outlasted me. I'm a little annoyed you think I'd give BJ and Kim my votes ONLY because they're original Chorotega. I don't care about that. It's about the game they played as a whole AND how they played with me. And they stuck with me until I was eliminated, and that meant a lot. Ami would be getting my vote because she did play a good game and was respectful to me. Tom was neither of those things.

I wasn't necessarily directing my comments at you. They mostly for Caryn.

For the record, if the Final 3 is Tom/Ami/Lisa, unless Lisa or Tom can make a really good case, Ami will have my vote. Regardless of original tribes, whatever. Ami would deserve it in that situation.
However if Bobby Jon or Kim make it, yeah they would have my vote. Because in the end they were on my side and stuck with me, and I was almost always in the minority. It meant a lot.

Point is, why would Ami/Tom/Lisa get my votes if they were against me like the whole game? I'm not that quick to award them my vote just because of the fact they outlasted me. I'm a little annoyed you think I'd give BJ and Kim my votes ONLY because they're original Chorotega. I don't care about that. It's about the game they played as a whole AND how they played with me. And they stuck with me until I was eliminated, and that meant a lot. Ami would be getting my vote because she did play a good game and was respectful to me. Tom was neither of those things.

I wasn't necessarily directing my comments at you. They mostly for Caryn.

Okay, well you said "Original Choro voting bloc" That includes me.

First of all - Hi John

Second of all.... OMG.

Then for some reason Chris fucked things up and went crazy. And Chad kind of did too. If Chad didn't play the idol and Chris never messed up so much, I'm sure Jolanda would have gone then.

How did me playing the idol have anything at all to do with Chris going home instead of Jolanda???

That's when Chad fucked things up and kind of made it apparent to me that he wasn't on my side, and I sort of expected that Ami might flip over with Chad too, so I did the idol bluff.

Before I got here you posted that you thought Tom and Ami were the ones that had voted you out and you trusted me. So what did I do that had made it "apparent" I wasn't on your side.

After that, being 4/6, I still wanted to take out Chorotega members, so luckily Jo and Gregg went. Chad brought up Ami and my plan to vote out Tom at some point. The reason we didn't do it was because BJ had turned on our four-man alliance (The Fourskins) at that point, and Tom was still appearing to be semi-reliable, so BJ was the target.

And who told you all about what BJ was doing to get your focus off of Tom and onto BJ? Also I think it's funny that before I got here you were saying that your only "real deal" was with Tom, but now you are admitting you wanted to vote him out.

But if BJ had gone, Tom probably WOULD have been next, but now that Chad has shown us all how much his gameplay literally was all over the place and that he had an alliance with Tom/Kim, I guess it wouldn't have happened. I guess I was just dumb enough to assume that Chad actually realized that his best shot was with Guatuso members.

My gameplay was not all over the place. I only had one goal that I was working towards. Just because I didn't jump on your plan and make it happen like the chump you thought I was doesn't mean I was dumb. If I hadn't gotten idoled out, I'm about 99.9% sure I would be sitting in the F3. And Ibe I agree with you that Kim was probably solid with you after she flipped back, but if BJ had left, I'm pretty sure she would have been with me and Tom to the F3.

I'll stop. I know that you played such a better game than everyone else did. Especially me and Ibe. Ya know... the two people who actually didn't get voted out but got fucked by an idol and a purple rock. You got fucked by everyone voting you out. But your game was definitely better. I'm not going to talk about this anymore.

Say it didn't come down to purple rocks, I get at least 5th place.
Sounds better than Mia's 8th.

And I didn't even get any votes at that tribal. <3

I couldn't BELIEVE not one person would change their vote. That was ballsy. I would have changed mine for sure.

Can the losers see Ponderosa? Is that what John was talking about?

Yep. And the lurkers too.

They're mingling now.

How did me playing the idol have anything at all to do with Chris going home instead of Jolanda???

It didn't really have MUCH to do with you... I think Chris expected you to either not play it or to give it to him. Don't get me wrong, this was all Chris's big fuckup, but that's not to say that if you would have saved the idol, it could have helped later on.

Before I got here you posted that you thought Tom and Ami were the ones that had voted you out and you trusted me. So what did I do that had made it "apparent" I wasn't on your side.

I said it was EITHER Tom OR Ami. I knew you flipped, especially when I read your confessional. You were so worried that I didn't trust you the whole time, when I did (bad move apparently), and by the time Tribal came around I figured it was a definite possibility.

And who told you all about what BJ was doing to get your focus off of Tom and onto BJ? Also I think it's funny that before I got here you were saying that your only "real deal" was with Tom, but now you are admitting you wanted to vote him out.

Tom and Ami filled me in as well. I talked with Ami and Tom about booting BJ before Ibe right after the Jolanda boot, and then we "confirmed" that we would after Gregg left. You didn't start piling the info on until right after the Gregg boot. So yeah, you helped divert my attention, but you didn't put the idea into my head.

My gameplay was not all over the place. I only had one goal that I was working towards. Just because I didn't jump on your plan and make it happen like the chump you thought I was doesn't mean I was dumb. If I hadn't gotten idoled out, I'm about 99.9% sure I would be sitting in the F3. And Ibe I agree with you that Kim was probably solid with you after she flipped back, but if BJ had left, I'm pretty sure she would have been with me and Tom to the F3.

Your gameplay was just as much "all over the place" as you think mine was. We ALL have inconsistencies in our games, and anyone who doesn't realize that is delusional. If you're going to harp on my game so much, I'm going to do the same to yours. And right now you're just fortunate enough to have three quarters of the people here to back you up. I didn't play with Jolanda, Ibe, or Gregg, and obviously you're against me, so obviously it's pointless for me to explain anything here because you guys just keep calling bullshit.

And if you hadn't have been idoled out, I'm also pretty sure you would have been in the F3, and I'm also pretty sure that you wouldn't have won. Tom has pissed off a lot of people, and so have you. Have you seen how much these people like Kim? It would have been Kim's game to lose in that F3. So yeah, kudos on setting up a plan where you could have actually made it to the end, but you didn't set up a plan where you could have won. My final 3 would have been you, me, and Lisa, and you would have had a 1 in 2 shot in that situation rather than a 0 in 1 shot.

I'll stop. I know that you played such a better game than everyone else did. Especially me and Ibe. Ya know... the two people who actually didn't get voted out but got fucked by an idol and a purple rock. You got fucked by everyone voting you out. But your game was definitely better. I'm not going to talk about this anymore.

And for the last time, I'm not saying my game is better. You guys beat me. You bested me and got me voted out. I chose not to play the idol because I'd rather not go out while I would have been traveling. You actually set up a plan to get to the end rather than play it by ear like I would have.

I'm just saying that you're too much of a self-absorbed fuck to realize that your game was not as good as you thought it was, just like I've realized that mine wasn't as good as I thought it was either.

So yeah, fuck off, and I can't wait to screw you over in a Rivals season.

Say it didn't come down to purple rocks, I get at least 5th place.
Sounds better than Mia's 8th.

I still can't fucking understand where you guys are getting that I think my boot was better than yours. You guys both beat me. I'm just saying that just because you were a few spots above me doesn't automatically make your game perfect. My game wasn't perfect, and neither were yours. I'm just trying to point that out to you guys.

Fucking assholes.

Say it didn't come down to purple rocks, I get at least 5th place.
Sounds better than Mia's 8th.

I still can't fucking understand where you guys are getting that I think my boot was better than yours. You guys both beat me. I'm just saying that just because you were a few spots above me doesn't automatically make your game perfect. My game wasn't perfect, and neither were yours. I'm just trying to point that out to you guys.

Fucking assholes.

I don't know just listening to Chad.
Honestly, I don't care if any of our games were perfect.
I'm not all up in arms about my elimination. I'm not that bitter at all.

Say it didn't come down to purple rocks, I get at least 5th place.
Sounds better than Mia's 8th.

I still can't fucking understand where you guys are getting that I think my boot was better than yours. You guys both beat me. I'm just saying that just because you were a few spots above me doesn't automatically make your game perfect. My game wasn't perfect, and neither were yours. I'm just trying to point that out to you guys.

Fucking assholes.

I don't know just listening to Chad.
Honestly, I don't care if any of our games were perfect.
I'm not all up in arms about my elimination. I'm not that bitter at all.

Thanks for that. And honestly, I just don't have any beef with you at all, but last night I made some enemies when I wanted you to go home over Tom and Lisa. I just never talked to you, and you were pretty lame in your attempts to make me think I was safe when we talked before I went home.

So yeah, maybe I'm wrong in judging your game, but I'm bored and felt like being critical, and I apparently had to defend why I wanted you to get eliminated last night, so whatever.

Anyways, when our confessionals are opened, Chad will see that I listed him in my top 3 choices on who to vote for to win. It was because I respected his move to vote me out. But now that he's here in the Ponderosa posting, I've seen how delusional and self-entitled he is, so I can't support that.

Basically, Ibe, you and Jolanda and Gregg are great, and I wish I could have played with you two and I have no real issue with you guys. I just have a different opinion on who should win. But Chad? He's a fucking ass and I'm not talking to him anymore.

Say it didn't come down to purple rocks, I get at least 5th place.
Sounds better than Mia's 8th.

I still can't fucking understand where you guys are getting that I think my boot was better than yours. You guys both beat me. I'm just saying that just because you were a few spots above me doesn't automatically make your game perfect. My game wasn't perfect, and neither were yours. I'm just trying to point that out to you guys.

Fucking assholes.

I can't fucking understand why you feel you have even a tiny leg to stand on criticizing my or Ibe's game. I didn't start any of this. YOU did. As soon as I got here you started going off about how shitty my game was. I was pathetic, a goat, I sucked, I fucked up, blah blah blah. That was all fucking you. Uninvited. Then you started on Ibe. He wasn't playing he was a floater. He sucked. Blah blah blah. I'm pretty sure Ibe didn't ask you to critique his game either. That was all you.

So who's the fucking asshole?

I didn't start this conversation. I didn't say one word about your gameplay at all. You started like you are some kind of g.oddess or something. So I like pointing out the fact that out of the three of us, you're the only one who was actually voted out of the game. And you knew about 50% of what was actually going on. Those are facts. Not my opinions. But please feel free to continue to vomit your expert advice on me. I find it quite amusing.

I was just being dumb with the whole Ibe thing. Whatever.

But you? I started in on your the minute you got here because you made out like you had a flawless game plan that would have taken you to the end and that your only mistake was getting idoled out. There's no way you can accurately make the claim that I knew 50% of what was going on. We're never going to see eye to eye on this, so whatever.

So basically, you are allowed to rip apart my game, completely uninvited. And I'm not allowed to defend it. Like I said I didn't start talking about this until you did. Just like I was supposed to just lay down, and not play the game and do whatever you told me to do. And if I didn't do that I was dumb?

And you're calling ME self-entitled???????????????

You're right. We are never going to see eye to eye. At least we're probably providing some entertainment for anyone who may be reading this.

You haven't defended yourself, though. Unless you count ripping my game apart as defending yourself. Which is fine, but the difference is that I'm fully aware of why my game got me where I was. You aren't. It's all "fuck I was idoled out but I would have won if not!" from you.

So yeah, give me an outline of your game and defend yourself and acknowledge where you fucked up. After that I'll be done and don't have to speak to each other ever again.