Episode 09

Was that what you were expecting? Who do you trust now?

Once you have time to mull it over, what's your plan to recover? How can you secure your safety?

Well that round went....in not my direction

I wasn't mad when it happened, I was a little surprised mind you, but not at all mad. Chris really was overplaying like hell for that round. After hearing from Chad and Kim and BJ of what he was up to and what he said.....like woah.

I took the initiative IMMEDIATELY following Chris' vote reveal to send a message to Tom, Kim and BJ separately, just basically saying that I hope we can move on from this speed bump together. I really want to continue working with you guys, blah blah blah. The majority of me knew by doing this, I start laying the ground work for self preservation mode.....but if I appear as a calm and cool player who understands everything, it should work out in my favor.

I think overall my trust in Tom/BJ/Kim took a hit, but from what I believe their perspective to be...they didn't want original Guatuso getting the upper hand. If they allowed Me/Mia/Chris/Lisa with Tom/BJ/Kim into the F7, they believed they would get pagonged. I wouldn't have let that happen, but I can see why they wanted to get rid of one of us just to be sure.

I really truly would love to make it past this coming vote, but I'm fully mentally prepared to accept my fate should they get rid of me. So far Kim has been the most receptive of still working together, and she knows that if they want to do Chad before one of Ibe/Jo after that, I'm down. I do have respect for Jolanda's balls for flat out telling me it is going to be a pagonging. At least she was honest, which I respect.

It's been 2 hours since TC and I've sent Tom 2 messages with no reply in return. If you're going to play the game, then play it. Don't be a pussy and ignore any player because you lied to them. Like, be a man

What exactly did you hear Chris said and did?

lolJolanda. Does that make you trust here more than some players you are closer to?

Well for starters, he tried to call a bluff and threatened Tom with Chad's idol, both Tom and Chad have told me that in their own words. Plus he was just overall trying to call the shots with MAKING orig Guatuso stick together. Him and Mia were trying to be the HBIC's and it was gross. I also heard he was spreading to others like Jo, that Tom was calling the shots.
He was just basically going kamikaze style and making it difficult for himself to advance. I assume he is either stupid, or just bored.

I definitely don't trust Jolanda at all, but I do have a higher respect for her. We both know that we're on opposite sides and she's making no bones about it. Gregg is really trying to butter me up, as I'm sure he believes I'm a future juror and he's a future finalist. Opposite strategies, with an opposite outcome in my reaction, clearly.

So....I think I did all I really could to regroup my game and get on the right side of things. It's best in these situations to just purely throw your frustrations at the door and be thankful that you didn't get blindsided instead of your ally.

What it's coming down to at this point is a vote between Chad and Jolanda. I believe fully that Gregg/Ibrehem/Jolanda are locked votes for Chad. I also truly believe that Ami/Mia/Chad/Lisa are locked votes for Jolanda. Tom/BJ/Kim will basically decide tonight who is leaving.

Let's say we were lied to again and Chad gets voted out. At THAT point, I will have every reason to out Tom and his two sidekicks' shenanigans of lying to us. There's no reason to lie to us at all when Me/Mia/Lisa could easily go to Jo/Ibe/Gregg and target the other three. I have NO doubt though that for every promise Tom told us.....he already spilled to Jo/Ibe/Gregg what was promised with the Guatuso's just so he's covered on each base. That way, both sides believe him and FOR NOW he's scott free. But if I survive with being lied to again, I'm making it publicly known just what the fuck is happening. It will get me voted out sooner than maybe I should have....but what the fuck do I have to lose?

Let's say Jolanda is indeed voted out and we weren't lied to. I would HAVE to assume that Ibe/Gregg will be all wtf and try to get rid of one of Tom/Kim/BJ at the following TC. Because of Gregg's reputation of lying to Brook/Chad/John in the past...he is not someone I will probably ever take his word at face value. Any plan or "blindside" he tries to get me involved in will probably not be believed at all by me. He's a troll, and it's impossible to take him or his word seriously. As far as Ibe goes....he's good. For me, he's frighteningly good. He has a way about him that even though YOU know that he knows what's going on (Like the Chris vote), his messages and personality is very convincing in whatever he tells you. He's playing a very good UTR game right now.


I think it's best at THIS point to just agree to The Fourskins (Tom-Ami-BJ-Mia) making the end. I think it would be beyond stupid to even bother trying to include Chad and Lisa into plans with NuChoro. Tom claims that he wants a F7 of Tom-BJ-Kim-Ami-Mia-Chad-Lisa....but he must think I'm stupid if he actually wants me to believe that. He will not let himself get outnumbered by original Guatuso.

All I can do is wait and see if Jolanda is going to get voted out tonight or not. Then I can properly gauge what to do next.

So according to Tom, they plan on voting for Lisa tonight? "They" meaning Gregg/Ibe/Jo. Ugh. I'll be so disappointed if they're sending out mixed signals for me and they actually plan on blindsiding me tonight.

Fuck. I don't want to leave yet. "Ami" deserves better than 10th place